exercise update and other stuff

Well...i have been working out every day now for 5 straight days....yeah me!

i don't feel different. i feel tired...i want my sugar back! i don't like being fat and i am frustrated all around.

i just want to be thin right now....yes i know i didn't gain all this weight all at one time but it sure would be nice if i could loose it all at one time!

Stu is not around too much. i am sad about that but he is certianly a good influence in my life. i was looking at the girls he's been with in the past on his site and they are all very VERY attractive. Darn them....i am putting my fat girl curse upon them....wa ha hahahahah

i am going to be thinner though and that is just that. i am tired of looking in the mirror and not liking what i see. There is a drop dead beautiful girl in there and i am going to find her! Apparently i am going to have to work my butt off (literally) to do so but it is going to be worth it.

My goal is to be happy being who i am. Since i left Steve i have made great strides. i no longer spend money i don't have. i am doing great on a budget and am proud of myself for that. My house is usually very clean. So now being fit and healthy is the next thing i am tackling. It's the hardest too though.

i am going to go downstairs and weigh at my next break and i will see if i've lost any weight. i sure hope that i have...although i am not sure it's going to be a lot. i will be happy with 5lbs. That's a pound a day. That seems reasonable to me.

Anyway i guess i'll blog more later...i want to check my mail.