lessons learned

so i found this really awesome guy...he seems to be just what i am looking for and i am excited....i am extremely nervous too...and frankly i just fouled things up royally. he hasn't returned a single email or answered the phone so i am pretty sure he isn't going to. i am tired of stupid relationship stuff....i may just be right that i am indeed better off alone.

So how am i dealing with my drama? normally i'd eat...but not tonight....tonight i took my dog and we went for a long walk...and then i took a hot bath and now here i am writing in my blog. i am going to have to learn to enjoy myself here as it doesn't look like i am ready to have a man in my life. i am too overbearing...to clingy...and too many men who say they aren't threatened ARE indeed threatened and frankly to chicken shit to admitt it and bow out with words instead of just disappearing like cowards.

i at least deserve that much respect right???