Okay so Casey and i aren't going to pan out. i thought we had plans on Sat...he never showed up... never called so i wrote him a letter that said...basically i thought we have plans....was i wrong...and asked him not to not show and not call again. i told him that was really not okay with me.
Really all he had to do was say...i think you misunderstood and everything would have been water under the bridge. Instead he sends me this email that is really sarcastic in tone stating that he has no intention of being with someone who puts schedules on him and expects him to report to them. He goes on to ask me if i ever considered the fact that he had to rearrange his priorities in order to spend time with me at all. As if he was the only one who rearranged things to spend time together.
i am sad...and i am hurt...because Casey truly is a great guy. i am sad it's not going to work out...and i could totally respect the fact that he's not interested or whatever...what i am hurt about is that he kept accusing me of trying to get committment when i wasn't...he kept comming up with reason he felt i was unreasonable...i expect him to make me #1...and on and on when i NEVER even felt that way much less said anything like that. i wanted to be friends and see where it went from there...and he took my kindness and turned into manipulation...chose to see it as a bad and hurtful thing.
So once again i am back to wondering why i wanted to date in the first place. i want to enhance my life...but the key is to enhance....not to make accusations of me being thoughtless and demanding...and make me feel bad about something i have not even done.
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I duz hate the dating scene, sorry it didn't work out.
Well that just totally SUCKS! I'm with Royce on this one- HATED the whole dating game. I found a good one and I'm hanging on for dear life!!!!
Sounds to me like this young man still has a lot of healing and growing up to do. Maybe someday he'll realize he was foolish and maybe not.
Truth is, Deb, you ARE special with or without a man in your life. Pursue your hobbies, enlarge your territory, expand your horizons, pursue your fitness goals, nurture your spirit and down the road as your sitting in the front porch swing with your sweetie of several decades, there will be no regrets.
Awwww...thanks guys. i know i am special...and not in the get to park close to the enterance way...tee hehehe.
i am not too worried about Casey leaving because i felt like he was just waiting to bolt anyways.
Live a little learn a little.
I really believe that happiness is a choice and i chose to be happy. And...Casey said to me in his last email that he hopes that i find someone to complete me....which i had to laugh at...i am complete...i want a relationship to enhance my life...i am complete with or without it.
Life with men should be like butter on bread! Bread good and wholesome without butter.....just yummier with butter.
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Jerk. There was this real jerk. I won't even say his name because I can't stand to think of it. But JERK went to one university and I went to another. I, the loyal and trusting one, decided to write faithfully and act like a "spoken for" lady.
Hah! A mutual friend let me read a postcard that he got from Jerk. What an eye opener! I couldn't believe it.
I cried so hard. Not over him, but over the fact that I was being used by him. I didn't want to get in on any more dating either. Yuck.
So, I found a nice little private place on a college campus and poured out my heart to my Best Friend. He listened and gave me peace. After I surrendered the whole thing to him (finally) I left that special place and walked out into my future, literally. Not more than 1/2 hour later I was reaquainted with this really interesting guy I had met previously. He became the love of my life and we will soon be celebrating 15 years of marriage!
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