Well...life in never boring in debville!
i was steadfast in my decision that i was really better off single...not going to deal with boys anymore...just move to TX with my family next year...save for a house and be a foster parent.
(for those of you who read my other blog you'll be reading a little bit of a repeat here)
And then re enter Jim. We dated a while ago but because of life situations we stopped...remained friends...and although we rarely saw one another we kept in touch with messenger saying hi etc. Outta the blue he asks me for a massage...he never asks me for anything so i say sure and go over there. We wind up spending the whole day together...and as we are driving he reaches out and holds my hand...i of course am a sucker for that gesture!...and i say...you know we are going to have a hard time being just friends because that is not how i feel about you. His replay is "okay". We seem to be dating again. LOL
He's a man of few words....i am a girl of many words...i wonder how that will work out.
He's heavily involved in the SCA. Society of Creative Anarchism....they dress up in old clothes, armor and beat eachother with sitcks in the name of history....i hate history.
He's a computer geek...i can't even really myspace all that well cause i don't know any computer coding!
We are so different. Yet he makes me feel like a treasure...as if i am more valuable because of our differences. He just quietly listens to me babble on and on. Makes fun of me in a good way.
And i am so attracted to him i think i might need to be getting my legs sewed shut. i want him...oh my goodnes! It's kinda weird ya know...i am not usually effected this way...at least not to this extreme by guys...usually i am the one who is saying i am not ready for you to touch me like that...usually i have the power. Not with Jim. And the best part of it is...he KNOWS he has this power...he knows that holding my hand...putting his arm around me...just being close to me has every one of my girl parts screaming....but he doesn't take advantage.
The other just odd part is that i completely trust Jim. Amazing after Steve...cause Jim is a big guy and he could easily hurt me if he wanted to...but i know he won't...i know it like i know air is what i breathe...it's just a fact.
Argh! So as a libido deterrent...i am going to go work out...and then go to the swap mart!
3 comments:
Ummmmmmm, I don't have any advice for you.
I wish I did.
I prolly know ALOT less about guys then you do.
All I know for sure is that Guys want SEX.
No matter Who or What (gross) it is.
I don't know if that is what he wants from you but all I am saying is be careful, because,
I will tell you the truth, I am not a virgin.
It may be hard to believe, but it is true.
And The two guys I did it with Only wanted me to be thier friends but also a sex partner. (there whenever they wanted me)
So, I don't know.
He seems like a cool guy and everything but it seems like ALOT of guys have let you down in the past, and I wouldn't want you to get attached too quickly and have it happen again because I know how blind people are when they think they've found someone worth keeping.
You never see the pain they are causing you.
So My advice(if any) is just BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU SAY AND DO.
Love you
Suz,
Sounds like pretty good advice to me...i am sure we will be talking more!
i love you lots!...nuh huh love you more ;P
Wow- sounds like a really great guy. Opposites attract, just make sure that you have enough things in common that you don't feel alone in the relationship. For example, my husband and I like music & hiking. All of my other hobbies are solo pursuits as he isn't into what I like. I got married for companionship and yet end up going to the gym alone. I love him and he loves me though and that's what keeps us going.
Another word of advice, make sure your energy levels match. I am easily excitable, I like to dance, hang out with friends, talk, etc. He's WAY more laid back, low key and is tired all the time.
I think about the past and plan ahead most of the time, he can only handle the present. This gives us the sensation of me dragging him through life and him slowing me down. It's NOT the end of the world and we work through it- just wish I had known all this before marriage.
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