So...last night i made for Casey mexican food. it wasn't really that good.
:( The rice was good...but that was from a box. Casey ate it...said it wasn't bad...but i didn't like it so i have to wonder if he did.

i am just not sure what's going on in his mind. i get the feeling he's not comfortable....and i don't know what to do about that....honestly there isn't much i can do. i guess he's either going to realize i am neat and stop feeling so trapped or he's going to go away.

This is why it's so hard to bring new people into your life as people in your life circle. All the people in my inner circle have been there since childhood....or at least 10 years or so. It leaves you so vunerable to be hurt....which i am sure is why i don't have more friends...lol i don't like being hurt. i am offering him friendship...with the possibility of more if that is what we both want...and he isn't welcoming it with excitement...he's accepting it with reserve.

Inner circle isnt the same as boyfriend either...it simply means someone i trust without a doubt...someone i'd move heaven and earth for...a dear friend...and honestly...those in my inner circle don't disappear as fast as my boyfriends. LOL

He kinda reminds me of Smokie our stray cat when i was a kid. He wanted to be around and was...but was ready to up and run at the first loud noise. The feeling Casey gives out is just like that....happy to be around...but ready to bolt.

He's so complicated....he has the whole Smokie syndrome...but he's also the calmest person i have ever met. He handles my drama with ease...that doesn't even phase him...yet i feel like i am walking around an egg shells.

It's a full moon so i am prolly just stressing over everything...it is what i do ya know. LOL