Barb...read your blog...so sorry your dad isn't doing very well. Very sorry there is the sister/mom issue. I am very fortunate...my sister is wonderful...and i am lucky beyond belief and i know it. When my grandma was sick she'd let Kelly take her to the dr and stuff but would vehmently refuse my offer of taking her in. I remember how much THAT hurt.

I was given the AA Prayer when i was a teenager...not because i was an acholic...but because i needed that adivce. Accept the things I cannot change...the ability to change the things i can...the wisdom to know the difference. i spent so much time trying to change things i had no control of into how i wanted them to be it started to destroy me.

I am glad you acknowledge how much it hurts...that it is just wrong...that there is nothing you can do...and then it's a matter of letting go.

How does one let go? Good question....i spend a lot of time journalling...and basically begging God to take it away...the anger...the hurt...sick to the stomach feeling. If you don't believe in God...which btw...i think you still do believe in God Barb...you don't understand...you are mad...completely understandable...you don't understand..completely valid. But really you know He is there. I am not being snobby here at all...so please don't take it that way...but i believe in my heart that you would be better off just being completely pissed off at Him and working through that than to pretend He doesn't exsist.

Sometimes when people say they will pray for me i get kinda testy cause i don't think they mean it in a good way...so i hope you don't take this wrong...but i'll pray for you....that God allows you to feel comfort and peace with this situation.

Oh and Barb...i don't like when people are hurting...so quit it will ya. ;)